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Today, decide to tell everything about my kidding rematch in China. No kidding. This is my 1st time to write something unhappy. Hope it will be the last time.

Rematch? Everyone rematch in US! Yeah, I am telling the truth I have to rematch in China. I can not immagine I need to have this special experience. This is the 2nd time I felt I am so UNLUCKLY in my 20 years. I really wanna cry but I don't wanna make my parents worry. However, my tears is running away when writing this article, really, uneasy for me. I am not strong as I look like, of course, not always happy.

A happy Fri afternoon, I am drving to some area in FS to enjoy my holiday with daddy and mommy, only a month left before flight. A call CRASHED everything! I was told I am RELEASED from the former match, the family in LA.

I was nervous and nearly desperate! That's a match I work for more than 1 month(usually a match only takes 1-2 weeks)! LA is a city I like, with so much to offer, good universities, beautiful beaches, many art museums, shopping malls, parks , hollywood! I can hardly accept thid truth. You know, once you work hard for something, once you get it, but finally you lose for reasons having NOTHING to deal with you, you will lose hope! This is my thoughts at that moment.

Then I contacted the family and got an idea about the reason. But I am unwilling to review it here and please donot ask me. I can only tell, it was not my fault.

Next? What's my next step? While I am preparing my luggage and the CA driver license. I am confused. I have no choice but to make myself calm down, make myself cheers up again (with tears). Go into the matching pool again. This time I will and must be more careful, maybe a little bit criticle. I need to match with a family I will truelly LOVE and be willing to LIVE in. I can not match one easily just for flying on time! As a fact, I nearly wanna give up!

Some guys do help me a lot in this hard time:Thank you mommy and daddy, my biggest support on the whole process. Thomas, a warm phonecall with hope again. He told me I am the 1st case in China, but 3rd one in Asia. Yep, it's only an accident, but not a small one, to me.Daryl, talk to me so many times, share with me her experience. Betty, giving so many advice on match, really helpful ones. Leo, a good friend never mind bearing my noice all the way, advice in English from foreigners. Michelle, sweet girl in Chicago, send mails to cheer me though busy in training. Ameko, loveing girl in NY, chat with me online and mails, tell me experience in NY. Some other girls, encourage me a lot.

Sweeties, don't worry about me. I am fine now. Really OK. I have accepted the truth and be ready for this hard time. I will surely have more experience in match with family. Haha. You know, I need to talk to different families from different backgrounds, belief in different regions, talking in totally different ways. I will write all the things here later. Be patient.

I would like to sit alone, think alone, do all the things alone, only small chat online.

Cheers and good luck!

Today, I decide to view this article, I think it's a right time to let you know why I stay silence these weeks. My biggest gain is: it's always up and down in my life, not over happy when good things come and not over sad when bad luck knocks, always stay CALM and CLEAR about what I am doing.

Today, I have been matched again with a family near Phillydelphia, PA. A nice family, studying Chinese this year. They are considerate for even my bedroom's color, with the hope I will be happy with them. I am looking forward to meeting them on Nov. 14!